warning/ long rant and loads of pent-up anger towards the world lol

The thing about going vegan vs vegetarian tho .
Like i guess it's the same thing for y'all with becoming a vegetarian from being an omnivore .
I told myself so many times i will stop supporting dairy products too , basically turning vegan but like eggs and chocs are literally my faves ?? It's like , you know it's right but you just can't?!
but okay , im improving alot tho . I don't think i will ever call myself a vegan but im trying to move to being a partial vegan . i have decided , i will cut out yoghurt too from today on since it's more than 50% milk . Like once , i saw this other video also about factory cruelty and i stopped drinking milk immediately from that day on . like 100% abstinence . and i mean like full on milk of course , i still eat stuffs with milk product , which is why i say im only partial . I used to NEED chocolate milk at least twice a day so there is ALWAYS chocolate milk in my fridge for my consumption alone , no one else in my family drinks milk . But i stopped right after the video and i thinks it's already been a year now . I also cut down massively on my eggs intake but it wasn't as successful ? first , it's my FAVE and when i asked my parents to stop buying eggs , they didn't want to . And sometimes , i hate telling people i don't really take eggs because i get called out so much on that once or twice a month occasion that i do take eggs . So basically , i don't order eggs when i go out anymore , but i still eat eggs when my mum cook it at home , and like milk , i continue taking products with eggs eg. cake . i know it's superrrrr hard to cut out your fave food because like what's the point of living if you don't make the most of it and eat whatever you want happily right . but personally , i just didn't want to continue this anymore so i chose this . and being a vegetarian is never easy . there's so much shit you take ;

1. people challenging you about why you kill a plant , you can't hear them scream so how you know they are not in pain blahblahblah ?
no but like let me ask you this , if you don't even feel pity for animals whose screams you can literally hear when you kill them , don't come to me with the bullshit about caring for plants whose screams you can't hear . yeah right , as though you care for them , you jolly well know best yourself that you are just being an idiot who wants to 'win' by saying nonsense that is such rubbish people literally can't form responses to .
like i get it not everyone wants to be a vegetarian , can be one or whatever . IT'S OKAY .
just don't bullshit me when i tell you I am one .
And for your info , plants do not have nervous system , or a beating heart , they don't bleed , they are a zhi2 wu4 not a sheng1 wu4 . you wait until you are a vegan before you start fighting for plants rights okay . if not , please shutup because you're showing yourself up and you sound incredibly stupid

2. having no food outlets serving something you can eat
it sucks being the burden of the group , and sometimes , i find myself finding some excuse to get out of trips just because i know there's no food .
i find myself questioning why i have to suffer when im the one who is supposedly doing the right thing (in my opinion of course , i could be just being an idiot in your opinion but that's you , i am me)
but okay nvm , this is small stuff since im used to it and im perfectly fine with eating bread and stuffs

3. people asking you to go eat grass
like i will never ever forget what my sec 1 TEACHER did to humiliate me , like wth , all my other teachers tell me how much they respect me for being a vegetarian and how they themselves had tried and failed and seeing me a vegetarian at such a young age is such an inspiration .
and no , this is not me being mad about people who don't worship or agree with me , like as i repeated a thousand times , im okay with you doing you and me doing me as long as you don't cross the line .
there was a sec 1 camp right , so the prefects came from class to class just to check if there are any vegetarians in the class . So after they knocked and said , "Excuse me teacher , we just wanted to check if there's any vegetarians in the class because we need to prepare the food for the sec 1 orientation camp" . so my teacher , being all professional and funny as hell (hahahha why am i not laughing) , happily turned to the class and asked , "Hi class! These prefects would like to know if there's anyone who eat grass in this class? Those who eat grass , please raise your hand?"

you're an asshole if you didn't think that was an asshole move .
I was 13 and the whole class who laughing their asses out and i was in a struggle at whether i should raise my hand or not . It was either , be humiliated and be like hahah yes that's me , i who eat grass yumyumz , or just starve for the camp . I contemplated not raising for real and thought about pretending to go to the toilet to chase after them to tell them secretly but because im a loser , i raised my hand awkwardly and consciously . the laughter died down somewhat because those sensible ones realised how offensive and humiliating that was but there were still titters here and there . And my teacher just repeated in a mocking and amused tone "oh , so you eat grass ? " etcetcetc

my mum was so mad when i told her and told me i should complain to the office about his unacceptable behaviour , and my mum is someone who always tell me im making a fuss and being overdramatic .
like it was really a huge blow to my ego as a kid and if i stopped being a vegetarian because of this one insensitive adult , wow your karma , you goodluck man .
you're lucky im strong seriously .

maybe i should just go ask all these people to go eat dogs , OHMYGOD WHY HAVEN'T I THOUGHT OF THIS COMEBACK BEFORE , IM SUCH AN IDIOT
LIKE when they go , oh you're a vegetarian ? go eat grass then . then i can retort with , oh you eat meat ? go eat dogs and cats then .

okay i always get so riled up over stuffs , okay remain calm , breathe , stop being a crazy person xinhui

okay so anyway , my whole thing about this vegan thing is , i think it's good enough if you just make an effort to avoid .
once i have this guy friend who told me he understands how it is cruel to eat meat and that it's wrong but "i can't not have meat for every meal , i would rather die" (all his words , not mine .)
but because im a bossy ass , i made him agree to just cut out ONE meat from his life , doesn't have to be a staple food like chicken , fish which is so commonly eaten . It should be something he goes out of his way to eat like idk , turtle meat ? crocodile meat ? frog legs ? idk what weird stuff people purposedly go to find and eat ?? i feel confused again ??? not my territory ?
so i forgot what he promise dme because it was some weird ass fish with a long ass name that he eat once a year during cny .
like idk if he actually remembered our casual convo and stuck to it , i would like to think that he had .
And this same guy who couldn't live without meat ended up being a vegetarian lol life is amazing and surprising , and NO LA , IT'S NOT BECAUSE OF ME OKAY , STOP IT .
I wish i can take credit for such an amazing thing and proudly be such a good influencer but no one listens to me okay , SO STOP SAYING IT'S FOR ME , HE DID IT BY HIMSELF .

okay so anyway , my point after beating about the bush (or the forest because i went a huge round) , small things do matter . just one small change is awesome . like being a vegetarian for one day a year (ON MY BIRTHDAY :D) is awesome , cutting one meat out is awesome , just thinking about the animals is pretty awesome , good job .

and because i like to end my posts on an awkward bad note

NOT MAKING LIFE DIFFICULT FOR VEGETARIANS IS AN AWESOME THING TOO , ASTAR FOR YOU .