Mo Chridhe,
Lee Xin Hui; 95-liner.
I wish I have more
to tell you.
I really do.
Tuesday, September 1, 2015, 11:00 PM
You just have to do it .
Starting another post in yet anoth sph lecture , yay
Xiao proud of myself because I actually contributed something to the seminar (;
Idk why I will sometimes have like a sudden surge of courage and will just randomly shout out answers and then on other days , I will rather die than open my mouth .
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Really random but I just went on tumblr and saw that I had 42k+ posts already , niceeeee .
Anyway , I decided I shall share my cheerup tag link >>here<< . This one isn't tailored to anyone so the posts are more generic , but yes , I update my tags every week so I hope something on there can cheer you up and make you feel better if you're down ! And yes , my text posts on tumblr are impossible to read , please just zoom in the webpage , thanks . My favourite tagged collection is actually >>this<< where I tag all the things I consider as important life lessons , things I strongly agree with , etc .
Anyway ...
Was wondering why my August was so boring before realising I had already updated about the first half of the month . Maybe I wasn't as loser-ish as I thought , hah .
LOOK AT HOW SHORT MY HAIR IS NOW . Okay la , not like super short but
Compared to a month back yo .
So funny , now I'm in the same project group as keyun for 3101 and same project group as Sha for 3207 , yay for intern mates HAHAH
Pinned this up in at the office to cheer myself up in case I felt like pulling out my hair lol . But now , they had upgraded me and replaced my laptop with a com , AND BLOCKED MY BAES WTH .
M&M coming up with increasingly weird products .
3101 which I skipped today , opps . See , I was on tumblr anyway , what's the point . Most boring shit ever , I always just sit in the corner and do my stuffs anyway so , I decided to just attend the odd weeks where I have tutorial .
Got time to take selfies somemore .
Decided to stop at AMK for my fave food yumz , and decided to walk through this memorial thing for LKY . ): #neverforgotten
My photos are so inconsistent LOL
Ellen disturbing the cat lmao . This cat super chill tho , it was sleeping when Ellen go wake it . An it just looked up and meow-ed at us before going back to sleep lol #youcool
Look at my sad bag , need to carry everything in my hands from now on ):
Okay la jk but sighhhhh
Bought this only because it looked cute , HAH
So envious of people always taking pictures of their passports and flying here and there . Everytime , the only place I go is Malaysia . Okay la fine , at least I can get out of the country once in a while right .
Where is this .
Oh yay. Reached so much earlier this time because we went by Tuas and there wasn't much of a jam . I think we were all ready to sleep at around 11.15pm ? Last time , we only reached at 11/12pm
Over friendly dogs scare me .
Super sian this time cause shuyu didn't go . Ahh but whatever .
Wrapped up like this because a fly got into the lt and I fear flies buzzing near my face .
Surprisingly energetic for most of the classes this time , but I felt like I actually absorbed more the last time . No cold towels to wake us up this time too , I wonder why .
Sitting in the middle of the road as usual because leexinhui sits anywhere she likes .
The last of my happy face because after this break was group discussion . And okay background fact , ganbu class by right is for those in their 20+ - 30+ who are preparing to like uhmmmmm , become more dedicated and take on more duties and jobs etc ? So unlike other classes where you can go as and when you like , once you sign up for ganbu , you have to commit to going twice a year for three years before you "graduate" . Something like that . And it's always in March/August during one of the weekends .
I didn't want to sign up at first because the program includes classes , group discussion and reflection presentation at the end of each session . Guess which part I fear . Obviously the flipping reflection . If not for it , I am willing to go for 15 years man , no joke ,
But babam , I got chosen HAH .
Super suey , I normally start praying that I won't get it like a week before I go . And as I speak to god almost 24/7 , god is always kind to me and spare me because god knows how much of a wimp I am . But for some reason , I forget to pray that I won't be so suey so okay , it's me liao .
When Faming kor told me , I was like whining like WHY, WHY MEEEE HUHHHHH I DON'T WANT .
Then I fell silent .
And when xinhui become silent , you know shit is coming .
Went to look for my sister after group discussion to head to the next venue for the next segment , but upon seeing my sister , I just burst into tears . Like ugly sobbing no less .
Actually thinking back , I don't really know why I must cry so dramatically too . But I think it was a mixture of unfairness , stress and fear .
I REALLY HATE PUBLIC SPEAKING WITH MY LIFE .
I hate how people sees me as this super confident and good in speaking person because I AM NOT . I am really good in speaking and expressing my opinion under informal settings , but ask me to go up on stage and do a formal speech , NAH .
Legit cried for half an hour , and I think quite alot of people saw lol .
Mingfeng way of encouragement was , "Aiya , don't need cry la . Maybe tmr mic will spoil or stage will collapse la , then don't need share liao ."
Pingyao also came up to me and gave me the okay? sign , but I was too traumatized to give him a proper response .
My sis saw that I was so pathetic and went to ask Faming kor if it was possible someone else go instead . He was super shocked when he knew I got so stress until cry so he agreed immediately . But I decided to go up anyway because
1. So AA , cry until so jialat then end up never go up , likea lame
2. So pathetic , if I keep like using my tears as an excuse to back out of this . I don't like being seen as weak , girl has got pride yo .
3. I got things to say because I cried lol
Okay , at least now I no need to fear this segment for subsequent sessions since it will be other people's turn , yay .
But then people keep saying , 'eh , maybe you should go up more so that you won't be that scared in the future' , NO WAY MAN .
But okay , pretty proud of myself tbh , and very encouraged by everyone . Zhonghe , Faming kor , Mr Sng , Yongjun , Zhimei , Pingyao , Zhiyi jie , Junlong kor , Jingyu , Jiejie , and whoever else told me I could do it , showed concern , encouragement , or told me I did well afterwards :D
Zhonghe and Yongjun don't believe it's my first time for reflection , YEAH LA REALY LA , or else so scared for what .
Good food @ pekan (Y)
So looking forward to next Friday because public holiday . So sick of having every single one of my weekends so filled . Need to learn to love myself and give myself some time on my own too . I need a break .
Bought this because of the packaging too and it's actually pretty good and worth the price ?
Fave drink but this is so small , it's pathetic
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THEY ARE TOTALLY THE SAME PERSON PLEASE OMG . Even more alike than V and baek
The vapp is making me pissed off because I am almost always late to live broadcast ugh .
Update: I gave in and downloaded zutter HAH , told you I'm a loser
I am such an ass .
Okay bye .