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Lee Xin Hui; 95-liner.
I wish I have more
to tell you.
I really do.
Wednesday, September 30, 2015, 12:15 PM
Once again ,

Alright alright, I’m aware that my blog is still viewable through the phone. I’m not THAT dumb, I have had a blog on blogger for 9 years after all.
Idk why I keep playing around with hiatus and privat-ing of my blog these days. I think it’s my expression of how I’m desperate to be heard yet I don’t really want to share. I feel more comfortable blogging when I know that it’s private/page blocked, yet I feel ridiculous talking to myself.
Just last week, I was so horrified when Sean followed me on my twitter? I was like , should I block him , should I private , should I stop tweeting ? But I ended up just leaving it be because screw it , you wanna read depressing tweets so be it , it’s not like you’re actually gonna do anything anyway . So now I have 4 followers including myself lol . And i realised I have 4 followers on both twitter account now? Yay lol

I’m in a rambling mood so I shall just type whatever comes to mind . Then again , when have I not .

So sick and tired of project work , seriously the bane of my life . I spent the whole of last year and last semester ranting to Juliet about how much I hate group work . I wasn’t aware of how lucky I was then , because this semester , I have projects for ALL FOUR MODULES , SCREW MY LIFE .
Haven’t even started on my Malay project and I don’t even know the name of that other guy in my group . We should probably start this week … 3101 group is the worst . Number one , most boring and dry module in the world . Number two , there’s this guy …

Okay I’m so shaken up right now . We were waiting for the 3101 lecture to start and Keyun came to look for me so we talked abit . Then Huiling turned behind to join the convo . So this other girl whom I always see in the sw cohort here and there came to find Huiling . I didn’t really know her so I just stare at them while they talked . And then while I was stoning , suddenly , this sense of uneasiness came over me ? And the girl’s face started to register in my head and I was like wait …. The way she talk , her appearance , her expression , everything .
So I went to look at the class register to confirm and seriously … my life…
She was my … friend(?)/enemy(?)/rival(?)/buddy(?) in primary school ?!?!
Like there was that period in my sucky primary school life before PSLE where I felt like I had NO friends at all , like me now hah , and she was the only one who was there for me ? But then that’s the problem with trust , people betray them . I think she went to tell one of my other friend that I don’t like her , and she started hanging out with that person ?
So idk what we are , enemies ? best friends ? , rivals ? buddies ?
I still remember how angry I was when she betrayed me , I was thinking , it would be interesting if I meet her sometime in the future . And god , I know you are always listening and have always helped me with everything and all my wishes BUT YOU DON’T HAVE TO TAKE EVERY OF MY THOUGHTS SO LITERALLY OMG .
Shit , now I have to avoid her at all cost and hope she never ever recognize me . Thank god for my lame name which is so common . I know she hadn’t recognized me yet because just two weeks ago , she asked me which year I was in and questioned why she hadn’t seen me around before . CONTINUE THAT WAY PLEASE , I WILL GET OUT OF YOUR WAY .
But what if she was asking me as a test because she thought I pretended I didn’t know her on purpose omg .
This reminds me of that tumblr post where it says something like , “You never realized how many people you hate until you have to choose a name for your child.” Lmao , so true .

omg i actually found the post , i love my tumblr so much , it's so neat .
smashgirlsDeactivated
the worst!!! thing!!! is having certain names POISONED for you……every time you hear That Name your gut twists and you feel sick and unsettled or angry

flowisaconstruct
This reminds me of a post I saw the other day where a guy was saying “you never realize how many people you hate until you try to pick a name for your baby” and it’s so true. You and your mate will be sitting there going “No, it can’t be Jessica, that bitch stole my necklace in 3rd grade.”

okay awkward end, bye