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it’s only monday and i’m about 98% done with this week

/ps yes , i finally increased the fontsize of my tumblr textpost , yay
So much regrets for taking last Friday off when I returned to office to see the amount of work waiting for me . In fact , when I left office @2.20pm (Was supposed to leave at 2pm but there was too much to do), there was still this super thick stack of casenotes on my desk . I counted , 15 casenotes to be exact and also 20+ letters to generate and send . Cannot even begin to imagine what will be waiting for me on Thursday when I return to office , I hate backlogs . And I just realised that Friday is a ph which means that I am probably gonna camp in office on Thurdsday TT . This is our running joke in the office , like everytime we know that there's a ph coming up , we will all remind each other , "Eh , remember to bring your pajamas and toothbrush tmr . Starting camp already ."
Okay whatever , I'll face it on Thursday .

I really do update alot more when life doesn't seem to run quite smoothly hmm .
Been thinking of restarting my blog again , like archiving all my previous post to a new link and then restarting a new one with this URL , not sure if it's a good idea .
Shall see how



THESE. BLINDS. ARE. SUPER. PAINFUL.
Keep scratching myself on accident during lectures ugh . And they are so sharp that I actually bleed from those scratches wth .



Tried all 3 versions of the Just Candy line , the malt one , the milk chocolate one and the peanuts one . Conclusion , only the peanuts one are worth it . But the peanuts one are REALLY good , it beats M&M hands down . I know I said this before but seriously !!!



I hate pills ugh . No idea what the doctor was doing tho . She asked , "Any fever?"
Then I'm like , "No fever yet but joints feel achy."
So she say nvm she will just check . She took my temperature with the ear thermometer thing and then told me I had a fever . And she showed me the thermometer which reflected 38degreescelcius . Then I was like huh you kidding me bro . Because I'm the world's most drama person ever and I always thought I have a fever when I don't , so how could I have a fever when I don't feel hot to the touch at all and somemore , I took my temperature in the morning ? But okay , she got proof so I had nothing to say . But the moment I went upstairs (clinic was only 5 mins away) , I took my temp again and it was only 37.1 ... I asked my sister to feel my forehead and she also found me to be normal . So either the doctor was crazy and her thermometer was spoilt , or my sis and I are crazy and my thermometer is spoilt . Okay whatever , so I self-diagnosed and decided I didn't have to take some of the meds she prescribed , total waste of money . Thank god for Chas even tho it is still expensive after deduction D:



Woke up at 6am for this . Reached cck at 7.20am but ended up being late anyway because we had to wait for Sharon's helper to get the letter from her house . The worst thing was , they didn't even check , why does this kind of things always happen ...



Empty shuttle bus because it was the last one , only had two other girls besides us .
So awkward to walk in late but anyway , the parade had not started yet so all is good (Y)



I considerately left them to have some time alone while I stand around the food area like an idiot , don't wanna be lightbulb yo .



Their uniform looks good right !



Tbh , regretted going so much because
1. the parade was so short , like wow .
2. I went because I decided I should be a good friend and attend something that means alot to my friends , I mean , it is like an important part of their life no . But then , after inviting me to go , they asked me , "Eh , you come for what sia ?"
Like okay lo , I stupid and naive ma .
Feels like I'm getting the "Guodong treatment" all over again . The guodong treatment basically includes using the bff card to guilt-trip you into doing something when he needs you and then turning around to throw you away in the end .Pfft .
Example , like how he always beg for me to stay back and wait for him to go home tgt because 'pleaseeeee we are best friend like , you don't like that leh' ,  and then just as he is about to leave , he spot another one of his friend and then say bye to you and leave you standing there like whut dude i just waited 20 mins for you .
3. The weather was so asdajsdhfkdbs hot and I was still sick so I just felt like crap and wanted to faint at the end of the thing . My mouth was turning numb and I started feeling tired , just like the time I almost fainted when they drew my blood . Had to force myself to stay awake and drink water and just pray I wouldn't die on the way home .

But okay , Marcus was pretty nice actually . The moment he spotted us , he came over to shake our hands (lol) and thank us for coming even tho we didn't specifically come for him . And he stayed with us till the end to talk to us , felt like the good old times @ the start of J2 where it was always the three of us for some reason .



Okay as stupid as I was , the past is the past . And okay , I got to visit another camp so that's that .



Had to check that the forms didn't have any info on it before I could post this . #woesofasocialworker
Had to wake at 5.30am because we had to reach Marine Parade area by 8am for our socialwork neighbourhood health service volunteer/assignment thing .
Had a mental breakdown about this the night before and threw a hissy fit about how unfair it is for our prof to make a volunteering program into a graded assignment which takes up such a high weightage . Idk if this is a known fact about me but i hate being told what to do , like i will volunteer if i want , you can't just force this kkind of thing , what's the point if my heart's not in it right .
Still think it's wrong and am so gonna feedback to the school at the end of the sem .
I mean , their rationale is that as an aspiring msw , you need to network and know nurses/doctors/pharmacists etc so this program is a good opportunity .
Firstly , I had tri-gen project for that which I chose to join myself , with this being one of the contributing factor . Secondly , wth , I thought uni wouldn't baby their students , why does it matter to you whether I network or not , this is such a crap reason . Thirdly , why do we have to go TWICE on the WEEKENDS , like that is out of my free time man . And there's no make up sessions or valid reasons you can give so I had to crawl out of bed early in the morning even tho I didn't feel 100% okay yet . So much bull seriously .

BUT
I know I ranted alot in front but y'know what , I actually enjoyed myself LOL .
like , I still think they shouldn't have forced this shit under the pretense of 'assignment' when we know they just have a lack of manpower . The fact that I enjoyed myself doesn't really change a thing . I guess I am grateful for the chance to talk to participants and practice my socialworky skills as they always call it . I am actually more grateful to realise that hey , maybe I do have something in me that others don't which makes me more cut out to be a social worker . Was grouped with this two other medical and nursing students and they're really more professional about the things they do . Go there , pure screening for the participants , I was the only one who bothered looking around the house or bothered speaking to the other family members , making small talk and chatting with them . It made me feel slightly better about myself , just like the last time someone told me "I can see you as a social worker." However , I now know I do have something but now the question is , is it enough?



Dead tired after a full day out , and felt so dehydrated



They gave us these uber cute badges too ! It seemed random until someone told us the animals were chosen because they form the word 'neigh-baa-hoot' together . Didn't get the horse with the neigh so I just ended up with 'baa-hoot' lmao



Couldn't stand the thirst so I succumb to my temptation .

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Monday snack from Jane , this actually taste pretty good if you're the type who likes sickening sweet- sweet corn . I do , hah .



There's something relaxing and nice about long bus rides too . Took a 40-50mins loop bus yesterday because I just felt like it .
Feeling a lil down today so I might take it after lessons again too , idk
Quiz tmr , I feel like I know no shit still ugh . Shall just do the sample questions and hope for the best i guess , stupidity can't really be cured anyway can it





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Been long since I updated fangirl shit because all my feels died down significantly after a few months , and I tink it's been 4-5months already with bts ? Also , bb and vixx are resting at the moment (I don't count unit promotions or jap promotions ok) so there isn't much to high about . But ugh , yesterday , bighit just dropped the news that bts are coming back AGAIN (how do you comeback when you never went away lol wth) in October and iKon is gonna make their first debut this month and bb full album is coming soon ugh getting ready for fanwars already , ohno . Just hope bb wins everything so that everyone will be calm and chill , all shit will break loose if they don't .

AND
bighit just dropped a prologue video as sort of a teaser for their comeback ? But it's related to their first video and IF YOU THOUGHT THE FIRST MV WAS DARK , THIS ONE GETS EVEN DARKER .
No joke , my heart was pounding so fast even after 30 minutes and I was all like omg wts does bighit think they're doing , wth is that ending .




If you look at all the thumbnails of the reaction videos , they are all of people crying because SERIOUSLY THIS VIDEO SKJSHAVDJ

It might be confusing if you haven't watch the first but basical- okay wait , i shall not spoil , watch yourself ,



yes hahahah everyone pretty much dies apart from Jin and V hahahah way to go bighit , yes , screw with our hearts

And some analysis that made sense to me (c)2-gehl < lol the URL . ok bye 

3. In I Need You MV, J-Hope overdoses on pills, Jimin drowns and Suga bursts into flames

7. I think Jin recording the boys represents Jin looking back at their memories. He’s not recording it now but he’s just looking into it. Outro: Love is not over plays. In this song, there’s a part where time is turning back (for those of you who don’t know, there is a part where time turns backwards toward the end of the song as you hear Kook mumbling things; that is actually the chorus sung backwards.)  

12 (changes to number 2). When the members find Taehyung, Jungkook says “Oh it’s Jin hyung.” It seems to be the afterworld (time after death). At the very beginning of the clip, Taehyung says “Hyung i miss you.” We can’t tell who he’s referring to but V seems to commit suicide. Afterwords, V enters the afterworld and Jin seems to be following after.