Hello , my name is Lee Xin Hui , my friends online know me as Rue and I normally use the internet handle "twiamxc" . 
I am turning 20 this November and I don't feel anything about that because birthdays means nothing to me . Especially my own . 
Blood type: B+ , hororscope: Scorpio because I believe in personality types to quite a large extend . However , I also believe that nuture > nature , and you can see that I normally contradict myself a lot .
The most important thing to me in life is my family and to see them happy . My parents and my older sister mean a lot to me . 
I am a born vegetarian , and I hate people talking shit about it when they know nothing . 
I'm now studying social work as an undergraduate in NUS because I had received many help in my life , similarly , I want to be that source of support for other people in the world . However , my heart > head and I'm in a current state of confusion if this is what I should pursue because I don't feel as though I have enough ambition in me to do well in this field . 
The most painful period of my life was in primary school , it was a part of my life that I would like to erase . The happiest period of my life was in secondary school , especially in secondary three because of the huge number of positive people that had entered my life then . The most difficult period of my life was in junior college , I had to deal with so much and I learnt that people are only there for the good times but nowhere to be found during hard times . 
My favourite colours are Yellow and Black . Yellow is obvious because it is a colour of positivity , brightness , sunshine and warmth . It is a color of energy and happiness . My favourite shade is >>Sunset Yellow<< . Black represents happiness for me too in a totally different way . Black makes me feel sophiscated , confident and invincible . It makes me feel free and in control . 
I love dancing , it's my passion . I dance when I'm sad , I dance when I'm happy , I dance when I'm mad ; dancing helps me express my emotions and calms me down . I started since I was 5 and had never stopped since . I love music , I have to have music playing 24/7 , except when I am sleeping . R.O.D by G-Dragon of Bigbang makes my heart pounds everytime it plays , and not in a good way  It was the song that was playing on repeat in the background when I had a bad encounter with some people . On the other hand , Forest of Dreams by Kinetic Flow (feat. Yiruma) calms me down and I can play it on repeat for months without ever getting sick of it . I listen to all genres of music , but my favourite are hip-hop or pop . I'm open to any songs as long as it is catchy and good . I hardly listen to any chinese songs , my playlist is made up of 70% Korean songs and 30% English songs . My favourite western artist is Taylor Swift and I admire her a lot . My favourite Korean band is Bigbang , and I love them , especially one of their lead vocalist , Kang Daesung . My favourite Korean soloist is Lee Hyori , she is my queen and there's no one else I look up to more . Nobody else can bring me up as fast as watching videos/looking at pictures of Kang Daesung or Park Jimin of BTS because their smiles can light up the world and they're too adorable for this world .
I suck at replying messages . I reply very fast when people ask a direct question or an important one , but I normally don't find it worth my time to reply to small talk . I have my phone with me almost all the time , but the only things that really matter to me on my phone are my music and my pictures . I'm a homebody . I enjoy staying home , just dancing , watching videos , reading , napping or even cleaning my room . 
My favourite food is Vegetarian Oyster Mushroom Omelette , anyone who had tried it agrees that the store I frequent makes it the best and that it beats even the non-vegetarian ones hands down . Noodles > Rice anyday , I will always order spaghetti if it is available . I live for chocolate , I crave for it every waking second . They cheer me up and calms me down , I can finish two boxes in one sitting . Surprisingly , as opposed to what everyone around me thinks , french fries are nowhere near my favourite , I only like it as much as the average person . The only reason why I always order it is only to make things easier and less awkward for everybody , I get sick of it quickly . My favourite drink is Ice Milo , I don't take coffee but I do rather enjoy Chinese Tea . Papaya , Banana and Watermelon are my favourite fruits among the limited amount of fruits I eat . I can't take spicy food well , yet I still like to eat it . 
I speak Mandarin 90% of the time , but I suck at reading or writing in Chinese . I am good in reading or writing in English , but am absolute crap in speaking English . I am really sensitive about the way I speak because I talk fast and my pronunciation for both language is awful . I hate it when people pick on the way I speak because it makes me really insecure . I learnt Korean for a year in university and similarly , I suck in speaking it . Am going to start learning Malay starting this month and I hope I would at least be okay in that . 
My dream country to visit is Venice or London , but I don't mind traveling anywhere as long as it is with my family . Most of the time , I reject people's offer to go overseas with them because I know they wouldn't give a shit about my diet challenges , I would only agree to go traveling with people who I feel genuinely care about me and not expect me to eat instant noodles for all three meals for a week or more . 
I get really irritated if I'm short on sleep or if I'm hot and sweaty , way more than the average person . I cry out of frustration if I feel too tired or hot . 
I whine a lot . About everything and anything . But I hate people whining because I'm a hypocrite . 
I cannot stop repeating "I'm very full." or "I'm very tired." when I'm feeling tired or full . I'm like a broken recorder when I feel that way . 
I love accessories . I spend more on accessories than I do on clothes . I'm also a skirt person , I own more skirts than shorts , pants or dresses . I love street fashions and lives in sweaters . I almost never wear sleeveless shirts because I am always conscious about my arms . I love seeing oversized sweaters on both guys or girls and think they looks awfully snuggly and comfortable .
My most confident part of my body is my dimples and my legs muscles . I hate my hair and my legs as a whole though . I don't consider myself ugly but I do count myself as below average .
What I look for most over anything else in a guy is whether he is a real gentleman . And to everyone who had always question what a gentleman means to me , it can be from something as simple as opening a door , making sure other people gets a drink/seat before himself , or walking on the outside of the road . Not paying for my bill as everyone else assume , in fact , I hate it when people pay for my food , not because I do not want to owe people , but that I hate people wasting money on me in general . 
I enjoy bus rides . Sitting at the corner seat at the back of the bus , earphones plugged in and just enjoying the scenery out of the window and shutting everyone out . It is impossible to ignore everyone on the MRT you see . 
I don't eat mint . Or pepper . Or consume alcohol . Or smoke . Or go to club . 
My favourite authors are Alex Shearer , Enid Blyton (Without her , there's no books in my life) , Charles Dicken and Roald Dahl . A fan of many other books but these are the only authors that I hunt for all their books to read . Used to read every waking second , when I was eating , doing homework , on the bus or MRT , when I was showering , when I'm supposed to be sleeping and even when I was walking . But now I use time as an excuse and I think it's a real shame . 
I'm a great saver . I rarely buy anything when I go out . I have like one - two set of new clothes every year . And maybe one new pair of shoes every one - two years . I spend all my money on food instead . 
I hate it when people put others down . By being snobby or acting as they know better . I shut up immediately when I sense that people are snubbing me . People who throw shade around everywhere , people who thinks they are superior or smarter , people who keeps correcting you , people who 'chey' at whatever you say , especially when it's something you are excited about . People like that are toxic imo because they kill people's soul and extinguishes people's light . I hate people who shows no respect for other people and their opinions .
I love mature but fun people . People who jokes around but knows when to draw the line . People who has been out in the world and knows their priorities . People who won't childishly get mad at you because you didn't reply their "Okay, see you later!" or "I don't know what I should eat." People who knows that the world don't revolves around them . But while being mature , they are able to be lame and fool around , relax and play games . 
I have the a short temper and I am super impatient . I'm also really lazy , and I procrastinate really badly . Not in the same way everyone claims to be lazy and a procrastinator , I actually am really one . I put off big assignments till the week before and start studying one week or even one day before . I laze around doing nothing all day and had wasted most of my life away doing nothing . These are all traits I have been trying to change since forever and am still trying . 
I have a more sarcastic sort of wit but yet , I laugh at the lamest of jokes . I always feel awkward because I don't laugh at the same things most people do , yet I laugh at things nobody finds funny . 
I walk fast , really fast . I picked the habit from my father , he walks even faster than I do . 
I love talking , my voice is the only one you hear at home . Yet I hate public speaking and I get really nervous if I have to speak in a formal setting . I don't really talk much with strangers or people I'm unfamiliar with , neither do I talk much when the conversation is in English . 
My most prized possession is my earphones . 
I hardly ever turn on the television . And when I do , I mainly go to MTV to watch the music videos . 
When I'm on the net , I am either scrolling through tumblr or watching videos on Youtube . I have so many tumblr accounts that I had officially lost track of how many I have . They are all on queue 24/7 . On Youtube , I watch dramas , youtubers or korean variety programs . Videos that makes me laugh . 
I enjoy swimming ever since I first went to the pool when I was 5 . It is really enjoyable and relaxing for me . However , I hate the thought of gaining even more arm muscles or my shouldes broadening even more because they are already as ugly as there are now . And I hate getting more tan . 
I prefer my right profile because my dimples are on my right , my screwed eyebrows and hidden tooth are on my left . 
I like to tell people that I'm not creative but I actually am . I think of the craziest and most stupid and ridiculous ideas , but I normally shoot myself down in my own head before I share them with others . I'm a really critical person , with myself and with others too . 
I'm like to share my troubles with other people , as long as they dare to ask , but yet , I don't let people help me . I don't let people get too close to me , and I normally back away before the other person does . 
I have crazy moodswings , but it doesn't take much to cheer me up or make me laugh again , no matter what mood I am in .
I hate studying , it is a form of torture for me . I would rather be working any day . I'm too lazy to study and it drains my energy . 
I give myself more stress than necessary and likes to stab myself over and over for things that are already in the past or over small issues . I find it hard to forget .
I treat most of my friends as my best friends because I don't really have that one person I can keep going back to . And because all of them matter a lot to me . 
I enjoy writing long messages and letters to let people know how much they mean to me and to tell them how loved they are because I never have much people doing that for me . 
I don't share my stuffs much with anyone except my sister . 
I like having many bolsters and pillows or even blankets , even though everything ends up on the floor the next morning because of my horrible sleeping habits and postures . I sleep talk sometimes .
And as you can see , I have weak meta-cognition . my mind jumps all over the place and my mind is as messy as my room . 
I live by this saying , "吃亏就是占便宜。" 
I have a bad habit of overusing exclamation marks and putting a space before punctuation . 
It annoys me when I feel like people are trying to force a conversation , we could always talk another day if we have run out of topics for that day . 
And with that , I conclude . 



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