Hari Raya holiday !!! Been looking forward to this day for ages , especially since it is also one day after my internship ends . Been waiting so long to have a proper break .
So anyway , pigs asked me out for lunch but I had to reject them because I already promised L like 1 month before that I will reserve 17 to head to airport with them .
Soooooo much regrets seriously , I could have such a great time with pigs ugh . Instead I wasted three quarters of my day away pfft .
Okay , thinking back to that day is starting to piss me off again , let me go watch some bts videos to calm myself down first GRRR .



Okay I'm super happy now because I'm listening to all the old songs like Shady Girl - Sistar , Heartbreaker - GD , Wedding Dress - Taeyang , Carribean Bay - SNSD & 2PM , Breathe - Breathe , I'll be back - 2pm and so on . So old school <3
Okay I just clicked on to never Let You Go - 2am and now I'm starting to feel sad because number one , today they just announced that 2am had officially broken up , number two , I miss yeowwee who shared this song with me because it meant alot to him T.T I seriously wonder how he is doing , I miss my best friend *sigh* I don't think I had talked to anyone else as much through texts in my lifetime , neither have I missed someone this much ):
Oh well , I love to spoil every single friendship I have anyway -shrugs-


Back to the topic at hand .
Seriously felt so sasaeng pfft .
I was thinking that bb would probably arrive in the evening like they usually do so I wanted to go out with pigs in the morning/afternoon , but L was unsure when they will reach and there's a flight at 3pm I think , so she just say she booked me for the whole day .
Nia was super shocked that I would do something like go to the airport but like I said , I promised her a month ago because I kept trying to avoid going out with them and getting out of meetings so I felt bad . They wanted to meet up during ticket collection day , I pretended I already had a date with ma friends . They wanted to meet for fanboard deco , I used work as an excuse . They wanted to book hotel to stay tgt , I told them I dontwanna stay overnight . (it got cancelled but not the point) So you see , I was too paiseh to keep rejecting ugh . So I went . The rest reached at what ? 10.30am ? I reached at 1.30pm after telling L I would be late . And mind you , she was the only person I know from the whole gang . So she said she would be late as well . Guess what time she reached . 4.30pm .
I literally sat at the airport stoning 3 hours of my life away for nothing . SEE , I COULD HAVE GONE OUT AND STILL MADE IT , CAN YOU SEE WHY IM MAD .
So nvm , went to look for her @ starbucks , and guess what , I just watched her doing her homework for another 2 hours . Like YOU COULD HAVE TOLD ME EARLIER AND I WOULD HAVE BROUGHT MY ASSIGNMENT TO DO WHICH WAS DUE IN TWO WEEKS TIME NO .
I'm such an asshole , posted someone's face and then rant about them but seriously I feel so bullied tsk .
Then had dinz with her (Like I only watched her eat while I drink milo and eat brownies what's new . I didn't get to have lunch somemore) and then headed to CIP Terminal to look for the rest . By that time , it was 6.50-ish ? I was starting to hate my life more and more because it was getting dark and it's not like we would get to see much shit plus I felt so tired I just wanted to lie down somewhere to sleep . It got even worse (If that was possible . Apparently it was .) after we met with them . They were all super cold and elitist-type of feel kinda people so I was just awkwardly shifting my weight from one foot to another and standing around . And one person from the gang was commenting , (I think it was for my benefit but idk , I let you judge for yourself since I'm always paranoid) "I don't know why some people even bother coming. They are not even very hardcore. They don't even run or scream when they see them. " Maybe I'm sensitive but like seriously , I hope I will never become hardcore and crazy like y'all , I don't wanna become a sasaeng tyvm . Like I said last time , I felt like I got drafted into a crazy fanclub . AND EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT I FEEL ABOUT FLIPPING FANDOMS . Thank god for Nia who I texted to rant to for keeping me sane . Tbh , I think L saw me type her name when I was ranting to Jaye while waiting for the dancers at T3 LOL , whatever .
Okay but , WE MANAGED TO SEE THEM !
still not worth it but , at least I didn't make a wasted trip . (or I might have killed somebody on the spot ugh) Ri came seperately for some reason (I think he went to meet his friends first , same as on Saturday when he arrive late at the concert) and LMAO , NOBODY RECOGNISED HIM .
He didn't shave fully , plus he had on shades on , plus he propped his legs up against the seat in front of him , so most of us were just squinting at him in confusion and he was looking back at us curiously until the van almost passed . Then some girl just screamed SEUNGRI OPPAAAAAAA then all hell broke loose , everyone flipping screamed and ran after the car like please , so far liao .
Then next was dancers and the other four . Ji was in the first car with the kwon twins . He didn't look up at all , he was using his phone , but his face was the clearest with his phone illuminating his face lmao . He looks hot as usual , what's new .
Dae was in the second car with some of the dancers . HE LOOKED SO BLUR AND CONFUSED AND JUST UGH . And totally judgy too like "what the shit. why are all this people here" kind of blank face and he was holding on to his phone too so his face was illuminated too , BLESS .
Tobae were in the van which were tinted (Ri's was tinted too , the front 2 cars weren't) and one of them was filming the outside with his iphone lol . Super lucky he never upload on instg , if not I would have died of life regret . I DON'T WANT THAT KIND OF FAME THANKS .
Wanted to go home after that because as I mentioned a million (and one) times , I am NOT a ygstan , I give no shit about the rest , dancers or whatnot , but L kept asking me to stay and run with her all the way to T3 .
And because I'm an idiot , (PLUS IM NOT THE DANCERS FANS AND DK THEM) I didn't register that I seen kwon twins in the flipping car with GD which meant that the dancers were with the four , we ran all the way to T3 . Ended up just going there to let the video director film us for MADE diary pfft . It isn't obvious if you watch the video because they cut everything but the way he film is SUPER AWKWARD . Like he film you so you will just cheer and shout something and expect him to move on . BUT HE DON'T . He just stay in front of you , zoom in , zoom out , move the camera near your face , move it away and wait for you to do something for like at least 30sec - 1min I AM NOT EXAGGERATING . So flipping paiseh , so glad I didn't make the cut if not I would have died a thousand times .
WHAT IF IT GOES IN THEIR TOUR DISC THO PLS DON'T PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE .
Okay , went home after that at like 10.30pm . Yes I wasted the whole day . Yes I regret it veryvery much .




`1807



DAESUNG UPDATE AND LOOKATME_DAESUNG'S COLLAB BANNER , ASDFGHJKL .
Reached the venue at 1pm and ran to find YB518% to help Nia collect her slogan set from her goddess lmao . Wait , we literally had one convo about this , let me go find .



Speaking of our goddesses , IM SO MAD .
WHY DID EVERYONE SEND THEIR MINIONS TO SG WHEN THEY ALL WENT TO PHILIPINES , THIS IS SO UNFAIR .
My goddess ranking are like highlite > domi > kangdot > yb518 > acetory > utopia > gdriera > partnervi > Elsa (because she's only based in hk but her photos beat everyone , THEY'R GOLD .) > choidot > bbside > teamotsfive = teamcourtingdeath > always-gd > urthesun > wheneverds > happydaes
And guess who came for SG ...
happydaes .
Okay I sound flipping ungrateful BUT EVERYONE KNOWS I HAD BEEN WAITING AND WAITING AND WAITING FOR HIGHLITE MY ENTIRE LIFE .
Like at this point , I don't even know if I'm a bigger fan of dae or of highlite tbh , THAT'S HOW MUCH I LOVE HER AND HER WORK OMG .
But nope , because fansites always discuss and divide up tour coverage , SG was covered by utopia , yb518 and happydaes .



No link but I REALLY REALLY WANT THIS , WHEN WILL THEY START SELLING AGAIN OMG .

I got so mad when I saw this because IT'S SO UNFAIR ):



AND THIS TOO 



THE HANDFAN I NEED IT IN MY LIFE , THIS IS LITERALLY MY FAVE PIC OF DAE ASDJAFSBVABI
And acetory went to ph too , I was too sad to screenshot ):
All my faves tgt ):

However , congrats to acetory for that special attention by ri , YOU DESERVE THAT AND MORE . ri flipped it to the opp side too , but I'm too lazy to find that photo .



Domi , kangdot and highlite , my top 3 goddess sent their minions instead ugh . I mean , I still got great photos because they sent someone but , I want their goods and I WANT TO MEET THEM OMG .
I think I am crazy but yeah .
I mean , we all owe our lives to them man , especially as a fanacc . SHE'S LITERALLY THE REASON I EXIST LOL . On the ig community at least .

Okay enough of spazzing about my goddess , let me move on ):
So I went to yb518% and got Nia's slogan set , and was in time to get happydae's pc too ! YAY , THANKYOU , DESPITE MY WHINING , I LOVE YOU ALOT TOO , JUST NOT THE MOST . Thankyou for giving me two when I asked , super grateful (':
Some asses were like , "omg pc . Eh wait, who? Oh daesung, I don't want." Yeah la , go kiss your ybgdtop ass la okay . (Such generalization but I assume people who speak like that are normally their fans because I believe ri stans can empathise with our sad state and won't say shit like that . Of course , this is a flipping generalization but I am just hella mad okay .) Didn't manage to get yb pc for Nia tho ): But I got Always-GD's sticker !! FLIPPING CUTE . Utopia's pc also ran out ugh . Wanted to reach at 11am actually but I woke late . So i missed the pcs and the MADE banner and the gdtop fan , ugh .
But still , here's a shoutout to all fansites and to all they have done for the rest of us . From streaming , to rooting , to trans , to filming , photos , schedules , goods , EVERYTHING . Thank you , especially when you risk your own tickets and money for us , I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU ALOT .

So anyway , I kept looking at happydae's slogan set because even tho I dearly wanted highlite and kangdot's , they weren't there , and hd's was looking pretty attractive at that point since I was desperate , hence I consulted my sister and ... I BOUGHT IT LOL .

Didn't feel like going back to the gang after so I decided to walk around to be a cheapo for more stuff . But obviously , I ended up sitting around somewhere .

Met Joce instead after that for a short while ! No joke , I actually think I enjoyed that 20 mins with her more than I enjoyed the whole day with the gang ...


ME WITH MY DAESUNGUPDATE FAN , I WAITED FOR THIS FAN SINCE ONE YEAR AGO WHEN I REALISED I MISSED IT DURING YGFAM CON , SO GLAD I FINALLY GOT THIS AWESOME LOOKING FAN , THE PICTURE IS AWESOME . This random person came up to us and told us to take as many pc as we want because they are promoting their merch shop . Ended up taking 2 dae pc and 1 yb pc for Nia , dae pc is one for myself and the other for Jaye . Wanted to take another for Juliet but I'm not that thick skinned or shameless enough x.x 
Anyway , this reminded me so much of last year when I went with Jaye . Her goodluck is seriously no joke ASDFGHJKL , people came up to us , giving us free banners , she flipping got 2 soundcheck passes for the two of us . This time , she won the soundcheck passes again -.- What's new seriously . Her karma is unbelievable , she must have been a saint in her past life or something .
But seriously , I miss her so much and I wish I could have gone with her . She seriously crazy , she offered to pay for my concert tix if I am willing to go down to msia to watch the concert wit her . I ALSO WANT BUT MY MUM UGH . And I would be able to meet Gloria too maybe ):

Okay anyway , went back to look for the gang and start queuing . SUPER DUPER HOT UNTIL BUEYSAI .



 With Phoenix !!! Thankful to her for not treating me like I'm invisible lol



Management trying to act cute . Spent ages assigning tags only to ask us to remove them because they were for the wrong section or something . Ended up they say that the tags are uneccessary , super lame omg .




 With A and L and this random person who was ... okay nvm , I shall keep comments to myself .



Got the same view as ygfam con , second row but between two people but even better because the stage was SUPER NEAR this time round .
Okay la , must give credit to the gang . Got this one girl super take care of the rest of us , make sure everyone got a good spot , good queue , good view everything . APPRECIATED .



 *CRIES* YES THIS CLOSE .
They allowed filming this time throughout for some reason .
And super joke , the security in front was a fan too , he kept singing along accurately HAHAHAH
and did I mention , BBSIDE WAS STANDING BESIDE ME DURING THE CON AND THEY SPOKE TO ME AND I TRANS FOR THEM LOL SO EMBARASSING .
In case you dontknow how much of a big deal they are , LOOK AT >>THEIR PHOTOS<< . And this can give you a clue to my view (Y)
All the fansite bought standing B for Saturday and VIP for Sunday . (I have become a sasaeng of fansites omg)
Anyway , to quote myself ,

xdaesungDid I mention before, I actually stood beside bb_side during the concert 😂 I seriously dk how fansites sneak in their DSLR, really power man. And I was telling Nia if I saw that highlite, my goddess, was standing beside me, I would probably kneel down immediately and tell her, "PLEASE STEP ON ME TO TAKE YOUR AWESOME GORGEOUS PICTURES."

I actually think I'm serious LOL .

Too lazy to upload videos this time round *sigh*
Should probably do it soon since my phone is gonna run out of memory , no thanks to bts pfft .

okay i had actually uploaded two earlier , but sidenote , I was an idiot and forgot that I should have filmed it landscape . The gdyb one only focus after 10secs btw . and the ri one is super lame , only 12sec .




And just like the last time , I didn't get a single good shot of dae , video or picture because everytime he comes near , I just become super starstruck/awestruck/lovestruck whatever . And also , I filmed less for this time round since everyone was recording , their phones are definitely better anyway . In front of me were one whole row or yb stans , behind were mostly ri's stan so this two kept coming HAHAHAH . I seriously should just change to a yb site . Fun fact : yb is my first bias <3




DAE ON DRUMS WAS THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE CON FOR ME ASDFGHJKL . He looked so so so happy awwwww . But I actually got teary during Sober out of fear for him because idk if it was me being crazy but I couldn't hear his voice during his first part ? Like the first chorus , I could just hear the bg track , and I thought his problem came back where he just suddenly can't produce any sound , I was so scared . But he ended up singing behind so maybe not ? And apparently no one else mentioned anything about this so maybe I was just crazy idk . 
GD getting splashed by water tho OMG SUPER COOL THAT PART . And bless him for never forgetting to say "Give it up for my man , daesung!" after every sober stage , best leader (': TOP was being a tease as usual HAHAH , he sang high notes during ments somemore HAHAHAH BLESS .  And his heart <3 I wonder what all these fans would say if they knew that the finger heart their bae is doing was created by byunbaek from their enemy group LOL . RI THREW A JACKET NEAR ME , WHY ALWAYS LIKE THAT UGH . I was like telling my friends , even if I wasn't a fan and went to the con for fun , I could have still grabbed it and sell it for at least $100 since the original price was already $100++ anyway lmao . Why didn't YB take off his shirt this time is what I would like to know BUAHAHAH . ENL was the most beautiful solo imo . <3



Blurry shit but my goods for the day !
Yes , they handed out pads again LOL .
Missed out too many so decided to go down again the next day with Joce for the rest of the stuffs ! She was super on omg yay



`1907



Back again bright and early !
So many people I wanted to meet on the second day too . And because everyone knows the second day is almost ALWAYS more worth , many of my friends went the second day , so on top of merch collection , I wanted to meetup with them too !
Didn't get to meet Kelly or Joanna on the first day sadly D: Joanna was at the same pen as me somemore .



With another Kelly , and Kristen !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
One of the top few on my to meet list ! This girl seriously super famous in the fandom lmao , connections everywhere . Plus , she looks so cute , all the k/j/cvips look after her like sister like that HAHAHA . Thank you for your updates everytime man #perksofapopularfriend @aboutbigbang on instg/tumblr



Jie was like commenting I look old beside these kids . #finallylookingmyage
Maegan , another cutie !
Didn't get to meet Abigail BECAUSE SHE OVERSLEPT , I CANNOT WITH HER .



End with this pretty photo of me . Happy girl because I got what I wanted , the MADE banner and the gdtop fan I missed by one second on Saturday ! YAYYYYY !
So thankful for Joce for going down tgt with me and trudging around and waiting for hours , checking for updates every few minutes . <3 



Another awesome shot of all the goods I got for the two days !
(If you cannot sense sarcasm then idk)



Fans from PTBYF , Seungri Thailand & Daesung Update !



Stickers from Always-GD ! Super cute !!!



Okay why so blur . But I got this for Nia from a fanacc ! 






But the bag very plain , look at yb518 one , so cute !



From fanacc <3



Coaster from L HAHAH , thanks 



PC from happydaes , utopia , gdworld , yb518 and the merch shop



Another fan from avril_gdtop ! 
These days , I sleep with my dae slogan LOL 





Stupid girl never bring keys . 

MADE era is going to be over so fast . And D is still my favourite series of all , while M is my favourite promotion period . E was ... disappointing tbh . Like number one , why would they push for a unit promotion in the middle of ot5 promotion , they could have done it after . Always been a fan of them and their work , this unit has always been killer but like , NOT NOW LA PLEASE . Number two , SLOW SONG , ENUFF SAID . And the mv was flipping cute but really mild and not very impressionable for ot5's . Okay la , but now I starting to get addicted despite it being slow and I find myself replaying already #ohnohelpme . MV was awesome for gtop but the song was also meh . Maybe because I had already heard 쩔어 from bts and their was THEIR BEST SONG MAN . Okay la no , it was just quite meh in general , unlike their previous promo . Still probably gonna end up being my jam in the future tho because I'm a loser . Or maybe not since I still dislike baebae and fb till today ...
Waiting for their full album already , was thinking of buying E because Gloria and Nia told me one month earlier that it was sure to be yellow , but the songs .....
So I'm probably not gonna buy any of the albums for this time . (Waits for miracle to happen and for it to drop from the sky like the previous times) MADE is such a ship era tho , GTOP , TODAE , GRI and of course , the most important ship for me GDAEEEEEEEE . Not a popular ship like the previous three but still , ENOUGH INTERACTIONS TO MAKE ME HAPPY THIS TIME , THANKYOU SO MUCH . 

So not done with them promoting as five , can't believe it's ending soon . And they have yet to attend all the variety shows !!?!!!! LET'S DANCE , ASC , ASK IN A BOX , WEEKLY IDOL , POPS IN SEOUL ESPECIALLY WEEKLYIDOL , it is my favourite favourite favourite variety of all time . Nevertheless , I am already pretty thankful for running man and all the MADE diaries already . BUT , they can easily make me even happier just by going on WI , PLEASE . 


Okay finally done . 
Time check , 1.31am . Thank god only one more day of work tmr before LONG WEEKEND YAYYYYY