When a post starts with an uber act picture , it's a post that's probably very act also lol
Read it anyway okay HAHAH



Gloria (@highwaytoseoul/@choomdragon) and Kyrstin (@biggest_bang) made a "People who made my 2014" post on instg which inspired me to give thanks to the special people in my life myself .
This year , I had been through one of my most depressing stages in my life , but thanks to everyone around me , I had been brought out of it thankfully and had been made to feel the most blessed I had ever been . It had been a really really great year and I mean that from the bottom of my heart . Never been more thankful to be alive and for all this kind people surrounding my life , thank you my loves . When you had been at your lowest , it teaches you to appreciate love even more , and this year really opened my eyes to how much love had been showered on me by everyone .

My Family
Like how Xinyun had once said , it's only until you graduated from secondary school , you suddenly start to realise how messed up many families are and how many broken families there are in the world . To be born in this household , I can't tell you how thankful I am . To have the blessing to learn from such great role models my parents had been , how they uphold themselves as upright beings and teaching me values which I would want to hold tight to for the rest of my life , thank you . Thank you for everything you had done for me , since birth to now . There's nothing I'm more proud of than to be part of this household . To my mum , who had been my biggest support ever , I always feel so alone when you go overseas even tho I had never told you that . Everytime you aren't around , it made me realised how much we talk to each other like practically every second we're at home , arguing , complaining or chatting or gossiping , whatever it may be . The amount of times dad or sis had come home and just find us lying on the bed up to 2am just talking and talking . I promise , I am trying and will try my best to make you proud and not have to worry about me , let's improve together . You're such an inspiration to me and I aspire to become someone like you , where people trust and confide in me because you are such a capable and a good support to others . To my dad , who had never received enough of the love he should deserve . When Psy said to us , "To all the dads , let's give thanks to them for they are the reason why you're able to stand here and enjoy now while they are working hard , thank you ." , it really woke me up to how I had never been thankful enough for my dad . Dads don't get enough recognition in my opinion . And with a dad like mine who isn't good with words , I had grown even more unappreciative and ungrateful . But I always do feel my father's love even though it is not through words . I see it through the way he always buy my favourite food , how he pat my head and always tell me before leaving for work , calling to check if I had eaten or had enough money when mum's not home , nagging at me and getting angry when I forgot to bring my waterbottle to school . There's so much he do for me and I'm ashamed to say it had only been this year since I started really opening my eyes and noticing and I'm really sorry for that . To my sister who had always been my first idol in my life . I look at everything she do in admiration , and used to tell all my friends how great she is at every chance I get . Even though I no longer do that now and mostly complain about her , idk , i feel like an older sister will always remain as a role model to their little sisters . I'm sorry for being so annoying but I really love and have to share everything with my sister . Everyday , I always look forward to her coming home and even though she's tired I still continue to bombard her with my ramblings because I can't shutup . I'm sorry and I will try to , I'm always grateful to have a sister and I can't imagine how single child survive because honestly , what would I be without my sister . I thank her for being the child I am not , and for being the comfort in our family .



彰化
Religion had always been something that's sorta in the background for me , but since jc , i had been forced to face my insecurities , questions and doubts about life etc and it had brought religion to the foreground. Plus idk isit because we have all grown up all what but now everyone is like obssessing over this and it feels like you have to make a decision now or die kinda thing . I always hate talking about my religion mainly because I'm someone who absolutely can't deal with criticism #100%honesty and I don't like the feeling that I'm pushing my religion and beliefs on someone else as much faith I have in it . And I feel a little sorry for that because I realised how it feels like I never had enough confidence in my religion unlike jh kor etc who freely answers anyone's question and encourage people to come to classes or activities . 
But this is not a time to discuss about my faith , back to the original topic . zh people are the ones I feel the most comfortable since they had been looking at me grow up , heck , most of them attended my parents wedding even . Uncle Wong alone should get an entire blog post by himself because of how much care he had shown for me . He feels practically like a second father to me and I thank him for taking such good care of me (': I wish mum and him would stop having petty ass arguments over nothing because I love them both lol . And for all the other adults , be it Lifong Ahyi who always call and ask after us , especially when my parents are both overseas , asking me to eat food , and loading praises after praises on me and making me feel like god lol , or LiSun/XinPei Kor who arent close with us like before but still continue kindly looking over us , or Jh Kor who always is dependable and looks after me or Nx Jie who goes along with whatever rubbish I say/do and always share with me news etc or Jm who i feel value this friendship the most hahah , you guys are the best . Zh always feel like going home to me and there's no other group I would rather belong to . We might be the smallest group in Singapore , without much people or money to have a huge centre like baoguang or even xingyi *sigh* but we make it up with our bond and shared laughter . I hope one day I would be able to bring something to the group and let's stay tgt forever and ever , and may us improve tgt too (: And special thanks to FoongYee Jie who is the person I trust the most in this world after my parents and Shuyu too who is one of the truest friend ever .



BBG (+girls)
I will forever remember that day when Kaijun told me "BBG are really true friends , you should really treasure them." And I really do . Like on that day when my house wifi/phone died , my data plan exceed and I had to contact Jaye who can only be contacted though internet since she isnt a sg-ian , I literally rolled on my floor crying and then I remembered MunYeeng and of course she settled the whole thing for me , helping me to whatsapp Jaye and all , bless her . There's no one else who would respond to my call for help as fast , in fact even my sister would complain like tenyears first before helping me . And when yeowwee wanted me to ask if the bbg want to go for the concert . all I had to do was tell my and she helped me settle everything . I seriously have no idea what I had done to deserve someone like her in my life , I definitely feel very undeserving of her . She never fail to make me laugh too , and bless her for having such high tolerance level for my rubbish . Gwen who is the most on person ever and is also awfully sarcastic but once you get used to it , incredibly fun to be around ! No outing is as fun without her and her loyalty is also number one . Proud to be a Lee forever . Rose who is always quieter than the rest of us but always made her absence felt . Thankyou for being there since the start , how would I have survived all the classes without your presence . Few people can take my nonsense and bullshits but you can and you can even match it up with an equally high level of nonsense contrary to your demeanour HAHAH . One of my most silent yet noisiest friend , how do you do that I have no idea . I am glad how our personality match on a weird level , we have so much differences yet so much similarities it's baffling? I love you so much , x . LiYi who I hadn't taken enough effort to keep in contact with but she had always been making the effort to catchup and checkup on how I had been doing , dang I feel so bad and so guilty . LiShan who is the most helpful person around , always with a smile and never minding to go the extra mile for someone else , thankyou . seriously this bunch make me feel like the most horrible friend on earth though , what am I doing T.T Nobody can ask for a better group of friends and I am so blessed to have such good influence in my life . You guys are part of the reason I am who I am right now , thank you for giving me this confidence and showing me that life can be this happy . 
RongFang and Jocelyn because I don't have a group name for y'all so y'all come under this chunk lol . I feel so comfortable with you guys , and every outing with you guys are the least stressful . (yes , outings are extremely stressful to me) Joce's energy and stories which always make me smile because the way you tell story makes it seriously interesting and fun ! And your effort when it come to organising meetup , honestly I dont think we would meet without you HAHAH . Your sense of justice and uprightness is really strong and I know you really value any relationships you have and I'm really thankful for that . Rf who had always been the best company for everyone , especially when we were working tgt , you're such a comfort to me , idk you just have a really calming effect , probably because of how level-headed , responsible and sensible you are and you really make me feel secure (?) . 
I always told my sister how as much as my jc class is the best class ever , the most fun and bonded , they can never ever start to even replace my sec friends because this are the onlyonly group of friends (excluding childhood clique duh) who had never ever in any way made me feel self conscious of being a vegetarian . When it comes to meal , they had never made it feel like a bother that they had to accommodate to my needs . It's not something that they would suddenly "forgot" like my other friends and when they suggest places to eat at , they always suggest places like foodcourt? 18chefs? really naturally without any awkwardness as tho there were no other places , not like as an afterthought .  Like they usually go to non-vegetarian places when they're out with other people so that they wouldn't mind going to foodcourts the few times they meet with me and not make me feel like a burden . And like just last week , you can't even start to imagine my surprise when Jocelyn suddenly told me I couldn't eat this banana cake at cakespade because there's gelatin and I'm like so surprised and like omg why you know this but secretly flipping touched . As a vegetarian , it should be something that I should proudly embrace and be proud of . I mean look at all the internet jokes about how vegans are the worst boaster/preachers and look at me . Only this year after I had graduated from jc , had I been more daring with the fact that I am a vegetarian . And like how I secretly confided in xy , I doubt I would ever go overseas with anyone else because they sure as hell wouldn't give two hoots if I starve to death and if they do accommodate to my needs , it would be accompanied with double the amount of whining and guilt-tripping stress which i sure as hell wouldn't want on an overseas trip thanks . I literally had people said in my face , "ohmygod, it's all because of you la." or "why you so mafan" or "can you just not eat" no joke . And when I tell people this they are so surprised that there are such rude people on earth but they do this later themselves? why? And it's not even like I'm extremely picky , I know being a vegetarian is not the most convenient thing ever so I really don't mind going to like somewhere where they at least sell like fries for example or just drinks and toast sometimes , anything that can just ill your stomach but even this apparently too much for some ? So i end up just telling people oh I ate , or oh my mum cooked at home rather than to hear them start laughing about my diet choices and whatnots .
okay out of point , I'm supposed to feel thankful not bitter , I'm sorry .

Pig
We are the weirdest group of friends imo but idk why you two are so special to me . Maybe because both of you eludes such sincerity and are definition of what true friendship should be . I don't talk to either of you everyday or even every week but both of you practically know every aspects of my life that there is to know , the important parts at least . I feel so supported with the two of you in my life and I'm soso thankful that I joined odac because let's be honest , we would have collapsed if it wasn't for odac lol . You two are such great people and I really wish I could be an even better support to you both but idk I suck at this kinda thing . But both of you are really special in my heart , please know that . Pearlyn , I really miss our trip home and talks on the mrt , idk how we talk so much . My first impression of you was that you were like this elitist and super cool person who wouldn't bother talking to us lame peasants but I was wrong because you're actually one of the lamest person on earth lol . And one of the friendliest too , idk what is it about you but you make it very easy for people to get close to you . You make socialising seem effortless and yet you are able to make all your friends feel special due to your genuineness and i love you so much for that . Talking to you always make me really comfortable and relax , like an escape from my worries for some reason , thankyou for being there :-* Weejoon who never fail to cheer me up and make me feel cared for with all your notes of encouragement . I think I actually received like the most notes from you next to Rosaline tbh , thankyou so much , they really helped , to know that someone cares . And bless your heart for staying pure , talking to you feels so different from talking to anyone else because I never felt like I had to hide anything or that you were . Happy one year in army and I hope you will continue to stay strong while serving the nation . I know how tough it is in there , thanks for sharing with me all the anecdotes and your troubles , for trusting me with your insecurities and stuffs . I hope everything will go really smoothly for you and you're able to ind strength to hang on each day . And during SCGP when P ask me out on a veg lunch date despite how busy you are , you had no idea how touched I got , it was why I fell abit silent because I didn't know how to respond because that was like the most touching thing anyone said to me? And saying how poon and wj also want to come along , seriously idk what to say ... Just the thought alone ... Just thankyou . 



1218 girls
Firstly , I would like to thank god for putting XinYun , JiaEe and Sharon in NUS with me because how else would I have survived this lonely place . Thankful to you all for accompanying me every second possible , eating at places where I can eat , studying with me , taking classes together or just talking together . Without xy especially , I would have died on the first day , seeing how clueless I am about everything , and how she helped me with studies , and how she listen to me ramble on and on , it's just so enjoyable , any time spent with her . Sharon who makes the effort to find us despite being in a totally different faculty and just being her usual cheery , energetic self is enough for anyone to be thankful for because she is such a breathe of fresh air tbh . Jiaee for being another one of my most comfortable friend , shit I just remember your polaroid still with me , shitshitshit . Idk why you always seem to feel like an inferior friend when you are already enough just by being you . If not for your presence , i would have suffered way more in the class , thankyou for being such a huge support and one of the best confidante ever without any judging . I can tell you freely my thoughts and I know you'll always be supporting me while providing me with the best advice/alternatives . My sister is liuke one of your biggest fans ever , she always laugh at your jokes when i tell her even tho they get lamer as time goes but nvm you tried . HAHAH i keed , thanks for being such a joy to be around , ilysm :-* Kezia who had been busy this year preparing for her exam , I look forward to spending more time with you next year and talking rubbish with you . I love how nonsensical our chats always are , and you're one of my few friends who can talk about my love of kpop with , thanks for that man , seriously you dk how much of a relieve that is . Sarah and Eileen who entered a different university as us but still managed to still catchup and remain as close to us all through all our outings . It's never complete without either of you and thankyou for being in my life :-* And leen for sharing with us your account lol . 



Westin
I already dedicated a post to this so I just wanted to say that the experience Westin had given me was really valuable and it was part of what had made me grow alot in 2014 . I really miss some of the people there like Sharon , Shaik , Queenie , Hamid , Vincent , Lorenzo and Gary . It had been fun .

Instg 
This bunch of people had been with me every step of the way in 2014 and had made me seriously feel so overwhelmed with love . They were there when I was happy , sad , angry or scared , so many people had reached out to me individually and personally and I'm so grateful . I had never seen as supportive a community as instg had been for me and seriously , I thought creating a fanaccount would be the worst decision of my life because imo , it crosses over the line from normal to obsessive lol . But you guys had proved me wrong . It was amazing how the friends I had made there can know me better than some of my friends in real life and make the effort time and again to check up on me and cheer me up or brighten up my day . And the things we talk about are conversations I never had in real life , I thought fangirl friendships would all be like "OMG OPPA SO HANDSOME! ABS ! LET ME MARRY HIM!" but no , we talk more about insecurities , families , depression , school , stress , whatever you can think of . And for some of us , as quoted from Jay (@jxngleo) , "you have the rights to dislike kpop i understand but one thing you should never judge about a person especially when you know that there's a risk they're gonna hear you is their taste in music. You're hurting what's healing them." wise words from a 13y/o .  
Thankyou to
Jaye (@xkangdaesung/@xkimjongkook/@kanginupdates/@smalleyedbrothers) , 
Juliet (@bigbangvideos/@daesungconfessions/@__younggbae__) , 
Kristen (@aboutbigbang) , 
Nia (@taeyang_yb) , 
Gloria (@highwaytoseoul/@choomdragon) , 
Jel (@queen.gzb/@bigbangminded) ,
Maegan (@ygfamtastic) , 
Phyllis (@ygbigbangvip) 
for talking to me seperately on line or whatsapp . You guys will forever be on my followforever list and bless your kind souls for being such angels . Evertime i post a slightly more emo caption , you guys would ask me what's wrong immediately individually and I can't tell you how much your concern means to me .  And I know it was Gloria and Juliet who made 2/4 of the confession for me on @heartblogxo , thankyou so much dearies , I screenshot-ted it plus all your reactions to my confessions plus all the birthday dedications because you had no idea how much they touched me . You guys have some of the kindest heart and souls I had ever seen in my life and I honestly can't express how much I love all of you . Jaye , thankyou for being one of the bestest friend ever . Meeting you this year was one of the happiest things of 2014 and I never expected that we would get to meet so soon . You're always the first I go to when I have to look for advice or when I need to rant , thankyou for being such a great support to me , i love you x . I feel like we actually drifted a little after you had your boyf but I am assured that you will still be there any moment I need you because you're loyal like that . I hope you're really happy and jiayou for next year , I hope it gets less stressful for you ! Juliet , I think we literally chat every single day from like maybe March onwards , and tbh , it's all due to you putting in the effort because everyone knows how bad I am at keeping a convo going . You always manage to keep the convo two way , sharing about your life while being genuinely curious about mine . You're such a bright energy and I love talking to you so much . You taught me new things everyday and brought me up when I was about to give up , keeping me on my feet and motivated . You had no idea how much you saved me from myself , thankyou for making every morning of mine start out with a smile . I never feel like I had been as good a support for you as you had for me and I feel so sorry for that . I promise I will try harder and please know that even till today , I still regularly go back to that motivating video and it never fail to put me back up on my feet and put a smile on my face . That was like the most touching thing anyone had did for me , thankyou so much my love , x . Kristen , even though we started talking early this year , we only started getting closer these few months and I'm really glad . You're one of the most hilarious , witty and sarcastic person on instg and I love you for that because you make me laugh so much ! Thankyou for all your updates , even tho your bias is top , you're one of the fairest admin ever and thankyou for giving dae so much love too , muacks :-* I love how you imediately send me pictures and updates of dae whenever you see it and take the effort to learn his song to sing it to me , LOL . And how you save up stories for me and share to me on my bday , thankyou for putting in so much effort just for me (': May we get closer this year and we sg-ians really need like a meetup session or something . Let me crash Nia and your dates okay lol . Nia , bless your kind heart . when Kyrstin said "I have yet to meet a yb stan I dislike" , I agreed with her so wholeheartedly , you guys are the nicest tbh . Even tho you're younger than me , I feel like your thoughts are so much more mature than mine and I actually learnt alot from you ! You are such a hardworker , you make me feel ashamed of myself . But I wish you will give yourself a break sometimes too and start resting earlier . We need to talk more next year alright :-* Gloria , I don't even know what to say to you anymore because you're such a role model to me . One of the friendliest admin ever and the most humble one with the amount of followers you had . People like you make me really admire Christians alot and I think that's such an inspiration . You have one of the truest character and the kindest heart , and it shows , you shine so brightly i swear . Thankyou for being such a role model and there need to be more people like you in this world , seriously . You rocks so much , i love you . You're such a treasure and a comfort in the instg community , bless you . Jel , I wish I could make you feel better about yourself because you need to see what an awesome person you are . don't let yourself be belittled by others and I'm sorry I can't really help with your family situation . Just know that I'm alwaysalways here for you and if you really do come to sg to work , please find me and let me give you a hug . Maegan , we had only started talking recently and you're so cute and fun to talk to already ! thanks for not getting mad at my slow reply rate even tho I already seen the message lol , I look forward to more beautiful memories with you which I know we will have . Phyllis , you're another one who need to sleep earlier HAHAH . I love how direct you seem and every conversation with you is fun with no bullshitting . And I had seen how you had been to Kay and I really admire you for being a support I failed to be . It takes a really strong character to be a support and a true friend for another and I admire you for possessing that character .  

Natalie (@tabitopping/@fx.sex /@seunggreed) ,
Hala (@perfectjongin) ,
Jay (@jxngleo) , 
Charl (@gdraqon) , 
Kyrstin (@biggest_bang) , 
Felicia (@koreeahn/@jacksonwje/@fuckai) , 
Helena (@tabiontop) 
@xgdrgn , @winnercircle.xol , @big.bang_gang.bang , @k.dislike , @imagine.bb , @ilybigbang and @daesung89 who I'm ashamed to say idk the name of , 
for commenting on so many of my post so that i'm not talking to myself , encouraging me and playing along with my lame jokes , sharing with me random stories on dm and just for being there . It's regretful how we are such pigs where I can't be bothered to download kik or y'all can't be bothered to download line for some of us lol but thanks for still making the effort so that we still talk on instg . 

Young (@younglee_88)
Yoong (@daesungvipss)
@daesungieee (deactivated)
who were the first few i followed and who followed me . If it weren't for you , i wouldn't have stayed in the first place . Even though now we hardly ever talk , there is always a special place in my heart for y'all and I look forward to when you guys become more active again ! Plus Thuy and Atheyu on twitter too , thankyou x Plus Kernee on tumblr , we don't talk as much these days but you're still important to me and every conversation we had was so fun .


It takes me so freaking long to organize me thoughts , i spent three days on this , ugh . I hope everyone's 2014 was as good as mine and I hope 2015 will be an even better year for all of us , full of new beginnings and many space for growth . I love everyone so much and I'm sorry if I missed anyone because of my faulty memory . You're important to me if you're in my life , just know that . Because of everyone , I am able to be who I am so thankyou to all of you , i love you , x :-* Let's make more beautiful memories my loves . Have a good 2015 .