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Lee Xin Hui; 95-liner.
I wish I have more
to tell you.
I really do.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014, 9:55 AM
In the end, it's up to you.


XH WEIRD FACT #009; at the peak of my social media addiction, I had 3 twitter, 5 instagram, 4 emails, 2 facebook, 2 youtube, 4 tumblr and 2 blogger. So far I had closed down one blogger (this), deleted 1 twitter and 1 facebook.



One day last month, I randomly went up to my mum and told her, "You know what? I think I will actually die earlier than you." and then walked away. I had no idea wth was wrong with me too and I know that's such an ass and mean comment but I really think I might die one day from fatigue. Can one die from stress and fatigue? Desperately wants to quit my job but idk how to open my mouth, dk how to abruptly tell them "I can't stand it anymore, please let me leave at the end of May."
One thing I'd learnt, never find a job from relatives, or friends or basically a job where someone related to someone is working there. I hate myself so much for saying I can work till July. Don't have the guts to tell them about my Myanmar trip also >:

Looking forward to the Myanmar trip so much, it will be a really much needed break where I can leave everyone and everything behind. Even though it means I won't be able to get news and updates, which I desperately need in June, I hope everything will be okay. Desperate for this break to come. Not entirely sure if I'm more disappointed that my brother won't come along with me or relieved that I can go alone. Idk, I'm feeling pretty scared too, I really have no idea what to expect and I'm sure to feel so lost by myself there but I'm determined that I would go this time, not just for me but also for her. It would be a good eye-opener and a great learning experience too! please be alright, no bad news please I beg you

Anyway , God blessed me again this time , I got into NUS FASS! I was super depressed because people around me always says how if you want to take social sciences but not NUS, don't bother. So I was super depressed because my results, as pleased I am with them, can't get me in there because I was behind by a grade :/ But yet another miracle, I have no idea why they accept someone like me but yay! Still, having a lot of dread because sooooo many of my closest group of friends are going to NTU, Jiaee, Pearlyn, Rongfang etc... Okay, many of my friends haven't accepted yet so maybe still got chance! -pray hard- Speaking of NUS, Jaye was supposed to be my senior but ended up not applying because of stress, WHYYYYYYYYY

Jaye and Ju had been awesome support for me this month again, ugh can't express how much I love this two. I realised one reason why I don't tell people what's wrong when they ask is because I realised most people have no idea how to respond or deal with my problems, and to the few I had told or looked for help, they will ignore or forget about it after a week. :/ But Jaye had really been awesome, continually checking up on me and my family, making me so blessed. And Ju whom I didn't tell, but who will always put a smile on my face by saying stupid stuffs like, "Girl, you should totally check out this awesome account [insert my account], her posts are so beautiful it makes me cries. (': " Like wth, she had two times more followings on her account and even though it's not true, it still made me smile . And also, they're probably the only peple who can put up with me replying a day late every single time omg HAHAHAH I'm so sorry guys ROFL.

The reason why I only published this after closing my page is because I was too busy to look through my gifs folder to update LOL