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Happy New Year to all !


While everyone exclaims over how fast 2013 flew by , I thought it crawled by at a torturous pace . But finally, 2014 is here ! New year new me . HAHAHAH JUST KIDDING , i find that as bullshit as you do thanks . This year , I didn't have any new year resolution because I thought, what's the point if I never ever got round to fulfilling them ? So I just have a really vague and general one which is to try and constantly remind myself to be a better person ! Definitely easier said than done .
Officially started work on 16'Dec and it's already my third week here whoa . This time , not working for the experience but purely for the money . And maybe that's why work had been dreadful and dull . I guess I sort of expected this after hearing stories from my sister and honestly , SCS was too good to be true , it's pretty much impossible to find another company like that . I still remembered after the first day of working at SCS , people like Jiaee wa me to ask me how was my work attachment experience . Without hesitating , I told her SCS is a place I would want to work at in the future . Like serious no kidding , everyone there is super nice , I guess their work choice is pretty indicative anyway. Even the bigbig boss is like Mr Kwek style , it's just the greatest organisation I'd ever been to . Life regret no. 94 : Not studying harder to ensure I can definitely enter NUS FASS Social work . Not sure if I really would have the face to email Jayne my results T.T

So , instead of writing about my new work place, I ended up typing a whole para about SCS wow. I guess my current job is pretty typical, desk job/admin stuffs ? The office atmosphere is typical too , working in silence , aunties occasionally gossiping etc . The job and pay isn't half bad actually , What really kills me is the fact that THERE'S PRACTICALLY NOTHING TO DO . Actually , they're really busy but it's like they're too busy to put down their projects to teach me so that I can help them. So I sit there doing nothing for like 70% of the time and feel useless . The first week , I was like trying to be initiative , walking over to my colleagues to ask them if there's anything for me to do or anything they need help with . After one week of rejects , I realised all I end up doing is disturbing their work so now I just sit there and wait . On the first day , Joanna passed me two documents to update and she told me I could take my time and do it slowly until Friday . I thought she was kidding and completed it in fifteen minutes . Now I take their words really seriously . When they tell me to do it slow , I do it uber slowly . Sometimes I see Joanna stoning along with me . I rather be busy than to feel like I'm cheating the company or something . Not even sure why they hired in the first place . But my dept is pretty nice , auntie Acey , auntie Surjit , auntie Devi and Joanna ! I think I'm gonna get super fat here , too much food already ! Auntie surjit passes me one fruit a day when I don't want to take it myself , auntie acey bringing me snacks like every few days , clients and bosses sending cakes over every week too !

I guess now it's time to do the standard post summing up the past year etc . Okay actually non standard for me seeing that I'd never done that in my 8/9 years of blogging .  I'm actually pretty glad to leave 2013 behind me , it is one of the most awful year of my life so far . Made so much mistakes , had so much regrets , felt so close to giving up countless of times . Of course my life isn't that pathetic and sad that there weren't any happy moments , just that much more of bad things were like concentrated on this year making it a hell of a year . But so glad for everyone who had been there along with me on this arduous journey and this cues the thankyou dedication post .

Kennard !


I decided to place him at the first because I can't tell you howhow grateful I'm to this guy this year . Please do exceptionally well or else I'm gonna feel guilty like mad okay ! But you're so smart sure can de . (okay I'm gonna use you even tho these people don't read my blog) I really admire how you still haven't pulled out your hair or go bang wall from how dense I can get , no matter what stupid questions I throw at you , you always tell me no questions are stupid and unlike many other people , you don't bullshit me , if I don't understand , you'll just write down step by step ! So many people I ask they always tell me vaguely like use xxx formula or refer to example xxx which totally doesn't help and I'll always just end up saying ok thanks and understanding nothing . Or maybe
it's because you're the only one who understand my stupidness level HAHAH .  Chatting with you or rather , ranting with you is always hilarious too , thanks for cheering me up , listening to me and offering me advices ! I regretted only properly getting to know you this year , else we'll have so much more to talk about ! Thanks again for helping me again with my science and maths Mr Ng ! You're the best and I'll be forever in your debt !
PS we need to go out to have a talk again soon ! I move you up to third place okay ! :P Thanks for being sucha gentleman too hahahah , hard to find now yo !


Propig family !


HAHAHAH why we have sucha childish name , it's making me cringe . But anyway , I think I'd already repeated countless of time about how much you two had helped me these past two year ! Really my strongest pillars of support , so glad to have you two ! I still remember how awkward it was in sec three when weejoon forced this random thing on us , HAHAHAHAH but you two made me feel glad and so lucky to have chosen NYJC because if not , we definitely wouldn't be as close as we are now !

Thankyou weejoon for never failing to pass us an encouraging letter every single exam since sec three ! And yes , of course I kept them ! You know , I actually felt pretty sad reading your birthday card to me because you know how you always end off by drawing a picture of three pigs standing tgt ? Idk if you meant to draw it this way but this time , you only draw a female piggy standing by herself , supposedly me  . It made me realised , no matter if I retake or go uni , I might no longer have either of you by my side ): Goodluck in ns anyway !

Pearlyn ! Super grateful to have you around to chat with , you're one of the greatest friend ever ! MRT rides are always too short with you , we talk about everything under the sun , from academics to friends and even family HAHAH (IDK IF YOU RMB) Thanks for jioing me to maths tuition too , else I might do even worse ! Our progressively enlightened face , I hope it shows in our results ! Thank goodness I have you in ODAC too , even though we have quite a few girls , you're the only one (and viv prolly) I can properly talk and connect with without being judged and can laugh my ass off for no reasons with ! Actually what am I saying , you forever judging me please hahah ! But may our weirdness live on and we'll never ever lose what we have with each other ! You two (and jiaee) are the only ones I'd told about my uhm secret? last year , because I trust you guys so much ! Thanks for offering me advices , listening to me and just for being there even when you have no words of comfort ! I'm here to listen to your troubles too alright , love you to so much !
You two and manyun and kaijun make me feel like wushu people are some of the best people on earth !


BBG (+ kaijun honorary member HAHAH)



One of the very main reason why I regretted choosing JC so much was because of you guys ! You know people always say think carefully about what you want and don't just choose whatever your friends choose . You know what ? Screw that . Because I think I won't suffer as much even if I just random choose a course in poly because I will have you guys and JC is crappy hell ! I feel like everyone reading this is judging me for being childish and immature but srs , JC had taken sucha toll on my life , yes I can't confirm if poly would be better but at least I would be sure I'll be happy because really , who won't be laughing every second with this people around ?
Thankyou for being my closest group of friends and not one second had I doubt if you'll be there for me hen I need you ! Every time I tweet something like I'm sad/angry , munyeeng will always be the one who immediately text me what's wrong even tho we lead such different life now and she dont understand jc work stuffs . But you're still forever there to listen , making the effort to come down to my school when you're around the area , or answer my questions or my calls for help ! Super touched ! And the rest , who are mostly available for a talk or a meetup whenever I'm in desperate need for a respite , Thankyou ! Even busy liyi who forever have something on , thanks for baking cupcakes and coming out just to pass to us ! PS I really need to go out more with gwen and have
our past lame crapping slacking sessions .


CCHY!



Firstly to my girls rongfang , jocelyn and rosaline ! Going school with you two every morning , thankyou for the company ! We always have something lame we could talk about somehow ! And rongfang ! Even though we're in different schools , I'm glad we're still as close and to be honest , I really love how much more confident you seem in AJ ! HAHAH one day must really intro him uh ! :p We need to go out more ! It's nice to just relax and not think about anything when I'm with y'all ! 18chefs forever our place :p and seriously , I'm still very touched when y'all send me long encouraging messages to motivate me when I'm depressed and shit , thankyou lovelies ! And I'm so lucky that you guys never complained how mafan I am when it comes to meal and that you all enjoyed going to 18chef ! And rosaline who till now is still one of the best friends who I can be the lamest with ! Thanks for intro-ing me divergent , super glad you became a bro too HAHAHAH
My sister is forever envying me for getting into nyjc because there's just so many people in the same school with me ! Chungcheng JC fw ! Starting from orientation , really glad to have CCHY-ians with me , guodong , edmund , youwai etc , thankyou !

Odac !



This photo potrays odac sessions so well . Me being happy while the rest are like "why is xinhui making us do this?" "what's wrong with her"


I know I always complain so much about how much I hate my CCA and how I dread going there but I actually feel that a common hatred can bond people together stronger HAHAHAH ! Jiaee was saying , whoa y'all odac people very special in the way you greet each other . Because everytime we see one another , instead of saying hi , we ask "eh you going not? / pon leh / you want pon today?"  I still dislike ODAC but doesn't change the fact that I had some of the happiest moments there and laugh the most during ODAC sessions . And thanks to my partner Benjamin too ! I think it's super funny that we got to be partners considering how we're both equally blur and we laugh at nothing and know nothing about the skills we're supposed to teach HAHAH ! And all the friends I'd made there ! Even tho I think half the people might not even know me since everyone forever pon , but those who do I'm really grateful for ! Thankyou for cooperating even tho skills is the lamest thing ever and putting up with my randomness HAHAH ! we need to play bridge again !

Sharon !


Initially I was just gonna lump everyone under 1218 except Kennard but I thought you were too special for me to just categorize under the class (plus if only kennard like abit weird HAHAHAH) Hardly talked to you in J1 except to ask for help in maths , do you know you were the first person in class I was determined to be with ? Cause you just emit too much friendly aura liao :p So I was really glad how we became so much closer in J2 because of orientation ! Thankyou so much for being there at my most alone moments , I love our morning meetups before reporting at school and how we had the same takeaway for the orientation ! And hahah thanks for letting me be one of the first few to know about your r/s :p
Your randomness makes me laugh so hard (and roll my eyes at) , thanks for helping me behind the scenes also !!! I think talking to you is really interesting cause we're sort of different yet the same if that even made any sense ! You're forever looking after me , asking me if I'm alright with things and going the extra mile , I will never forget that special moment hen we caught a glimpse of cnblue together !  And how I just left my phone on the floor in the middle of nowhere HAHAH . Your efforts for your class is really appreciated , we're all super lucky people to have you ! Hope your dream of becoming a pilot will come true , grow taller ! I love how we react so strongly and object so violently when people talk about watches HAHAH


Jiaee!


I'm not a naturally expressive person so I always felt bad and awkward as hell when you exclaimed you missed me and things like that x.x YES I MISS YOU AS MUCH TOO but I really don't respond to situations well I'M SORRY . As I told you many times , when everyone heard that I got to be in the same class as you , they told me how lucky I was and assured me that you'll take good care of me ! (idk why everyone thinks I need taking care of tho) And indeed , from the first day , you'd always made sure I wasn't left out even tho I must be sucha burden being so antisocial and all ! I love talking with you so much cause even tho you're lame and childish as hell , you have the most mature thinking out of all my friends ! You can see things so rationally and speak your mind super straight-forwardly , I admire you super much please . Every time you don't come to school , I automatically feel uber sian , SCHOOL'S NEVER THE SAME WITHOUT YOU ! I think I might have given up long ago had you not been in the same class as me , making me laugh and being that reason why classes are more enjoyable and encouraging me whenever I felt like I'm gonna die . I'm really sorry I'm so bad at words that I couldn't offer the same support you offer me , at least I'm glad you're strong enough and have enough friends who can do what I can't for you ! I'm really grateful for all the advices you gave me , I listened to all of them because somehow , you're always right hahah ! You're really one of the best friend anyone could ever ask for , you treat all your friends super well ! Yay , so happy you got hooked to youtube too , brochachos ! And divergent of course ! Sorry I gave up bbjx halfway ,
I'll continue again on Saturday la okay ! Sorry for being a burden friend and I love you so very muchhhhh ! Thanks for being there !
Okay la must give you credit , your jokes even tho lame are pretty original ROFL


1218 !



I think if the school decided to hold a contest for the most bonded class by tracking our daily activities , we'll definitely win it ! This is the first time since primary 1 that I'd been assigned to a proper class which is actually bonded , I never had much luck with classes .
I love how people know us as the class of one clique , because no one is left out and there's no segregation at all ! Even though we didn't graduate tgt , all 23 of us still remained so close , unlike other classes whose retainees seemed to have disappeared from their lives . Plus one of the rare few classes (or maybe the only one) whose whole class , all 23 of us attended prom together ! (okay i'm gonna stop saying all 23 of us because 1218 forever ot23 okay) And all our birthday celebrations , random outings , study sessions in class , present search etc . Especially this year during orientation , it made me realise what a wonderful class I had . Everyday 9 of us OGLs never failing to take a
group shot , the other OGLs were like asking why we so bond one . Orientation was the first time in JC when I was out of the class and it made me see how sheltered I was with you all , everyone always looking out for one another . It made me appreciate 1218 so much more , which is why I suddenly started going for most outings hahah :p Even tho we always make our teachers disappointed , supposedly the best few classes but always ending up average especially with me pulling us down , I still like how we work together and always do things together . We had 98% of our lunches together , which is also super rare . The only time we don't sit together is when there's really no space or
when we got different combi in J2 ! Also , our bad reputation as being the forever late class is alil hilaious , I really have no idea why the prom management committee put us all the way in front beside Mr Kwek's table , walking in the latest as one big group HAHAH
Thanks for giving me a proper class for once , I'm sure even after many years , we'll still be doing meetups at least once a year (:


Clique !


I suddenly have nothing to type here because I think no words can describe my love for you guys or our friendship . You're the best siblings I could ever ask for . I'm so glad we'd put that awful adult incident behind us and that my brothers had came back to us ! So much experience I'd shared with you all , my first time on a plane , my first stayover , my first time to snowcity , zoo , birdpark , botanic gardens , pulau ubin etc . My first camp , first timestaying out past 12am , first people to walk me home , first swim with friends , so many first with you all ! May the first time i see snow be with you all too ~ We had seen each other at our most unglam , since birth , heck even before birth , it's natural that there's no one else I can feel closer with . It's actually pretty sad how we all aimed to go cchy tgt but only me and nx ended up there HAHAH
But nvm , we don't need to see each other every day to be close right ! I still remember how when we were still super young , every time we called at jhjm house , zixin wenxin will always say "jh your gf" if it's my jie or "jm your gf" when it's me HAHAHAH Thanks for always looking out for me ! During countdown when kor kept asking me if it's really alright that I go home alone , when you all ignored me and walk home with me because it's late . I think I get too used to your care that I forgot guys outside aren't the same way . Do you know there was once I was telling others I don't dare go home too late cause my house there forever got drunkards from nearby coffeeshop and they just laughed at me , asking me who will want me -.- Weixiang kor who had always been our lead , always overprotecting us , saying that he will confront people who insulted us etc , especially when my friends hack my twitter HAHAH I feel the love , thanks ! And jh kor who never rejected when I got too much food and unload some on his plates :p And nx jie who confided in me and is always there to lend a listening year ! Sorry for failing you last year , it as really sudden and I didn't respond well , I'm really sorry even if you don't blame me , I need to have faster reactions ):

Family!
This is probably gonna be the shortest because I family love is really never good in words . I'm just really glad I'm in this family and I'm glad we stood strong together especially last year . Listening to my friend's family stories make me feel really blessed and Idk what I'll do without my family . I always pride myself on being independent and non-clingy but I think , I might be a clingy gf if I ever have a bf because i realised everyday after work or school , i HAVE to call my mum or sister to tell them about every little thing that happened . Thanks for loving me and putting up with me .

Jaye!
i hesitated before posting about you because I thought people might find this weird and shits but whatever , you're too important for me to miss out just because of what other people think !
I actually put you last because I realised yours is the one nobody is gonna read HAHAH but yours will be the longest okay ! I don't think I'll ever get to take a picture with you in my entire life ): Okay maybe when we're older alright ! Y'know , I used to roll my eyes at people who make online friends and swear that they're closer to them than their real life friends , I thought that wasn't possible and they were just being idiotic . But now I finally understood ! You are the best thing that happened to me in 2013 , seriously . I can't believe we actually started chatting because of our mutual hate for brown rice and our shared preference for noodles , I mean how much more weird and lame can we get . I really love how direct we're with each other , when the rest normally give politically correct answers , you'll just tell me straight in the face how you felt about something . We really have wayyyy too  much in common , same age , same bias ,same obssesions and preferences . Even our sisters are the same type hahah ! And our typos too omg , I hate it so much , stupid autocorrect . The most hilarious is how we hated xxx tgt in the beginning and then one day I was like "eh I got something to confess , now I sortof like xxx" and miraculously , you were like "omg I'm actually starting to like xxx too" like wth this is so creepy my hairs are standing as I type this . TOO MUCH FATE ALREADY I CANNOT . And how we get excited over the lamest things like even deciding to add each other as friends on fb can get us so excited for nothing HAHAHAH what's wrong with us . Please be touched that I downloaded line just to chat with you okay ! It use up so much space ugh . Stop making me eternally jealous of your stuffs , crying here T.T One day I'm gonna run to your house and steal that precious clear file of yours , you just wait ! It's so nice talking with you about random shits , confessing about all my lame secrets and complaining about random stuffs ! You're really too nice to talk to , don't deny because you can tell from just the amount of people who are always looking for you to chat ! There was once when I was being childish and lame , feeling pretty sad because initially , we used to seem to only had each other seeing that we joined at the same time and even have the same friends but all of a sudden , everyone is clamoring to talk with you while I continued on my sad antisocial life ): (Don't worry , I grew up and got over it HAHAHAH) So I can't tell you how touched I was to receive your usual spam of message on new year telling me that you're equally grateful for me and that you felt comfortable chatting with me ! Same for me alright ! I'm starting to sound like a crazy clingy girlfriend or something so I should stop . Chang nan ei ye ei yo HAHAHAH
For heaven's sake , please sleep earlier okay ! I always feel like I'm gonna get a sore throat after talking to you because we always get so excited and type in caps . Like seriously , if I type in caps too long , I will unknowingly strain my throat HAHAHAH SORRY WEIRD ME AGAIN .PS , you're the only one I told my real name plus added on every single social media I have , from twitter to fb to insta and even tumblr . I was telling my sist about you and she was like that's so creepy , talking to a random stranger like I'm gonna end up like those people who get cheated and stuffs until I showed her your accounts  then she agreed that our friendship is pretty cool. Actually she shutup after seeing your dp hahah ! The first time I saw your dp I reallyreally thought it was photoshopped . I stalked your insta and I found out that the photo had the most likes opps stalker xinhui in action . But whatever , we're in different countries anyway , not like we can meet or we send money such that we can cheat each other . Thanks for being there for me and trusting me like I trust you ! and helping me so much , teaching me and especially with the torrent thing ! I hope there won't be a day when we suddenly just stopped talking to each other alright ! Love you many ! I actually read this four times to make sure it was as non-creeps as possible HAHAH but just in case anyone else apart from Jaye read this and feel worried for my sanity , don't worry , all we ever do is chat about lame shits and get excited over nothing .

I know that I'm a reallyreally hard person to get close to because I'm just so socially awkward , never knowing what to say at the right time which is why I'm especially grateful to the people who I felt can really connect with me and chat comfortably with .
Thankyou all for being in my life <3 May we have many more years ahead of us to be together ! Cheers ,x

Gonna edit this post to add in all the photos when my sister come back ! In a hurry to post this before waiting because this is already five days late CRAP  edited